Pritha Basu

The Day I Became An Individual

[ A Few Words From Us]

 This write up is a special one as it is written by a student of Class XI,

 Kendriya Vidyala, BHEL, Haridwar, 

We congratulate her for her initiative to come forward and express her tender feelings. 

I haven’t got a single idea how to start telling or rather laying down my thoughts. To be very frank I don’t even know why I am writing cause there is nothing much special to write right now. One thing is clear, my mind is screaming out in the skull, but the signals are not reaching to my hand. It’s strange , cause about 10min. before I had tons of ideas to jot down but now all I have is a pen and a notebook on which  I’m writing down is what I’m talking about. The winter as it seems are going home. Seems the Homo sapiens have really made the pollution level to a threatening level, but the nature is above all. The animals who got down in this planet  about millions of years ago cannot destroy that thing, which is responsible for its existence so easily.
 This idea popped in my mind when yesterday the wind was howling over Haridwar.My brother and I were shifting some of my stuff to my room. Mom and Dad were busy in  packing  my brother’s luggage cause it’s  time again for him to leave me and Mom and Dad for his college VIT . I knew he has to go cause it’s for his own good but my heart was weeping badly cause he is the only one with whom I could share my school staff, my feelings and above all my pains.As he went taking my things to our room which again is going to be mine. I watching him walking. Things really have changed and we in true sense are parting away. I really didn’t know that staying away from Bhai which I as a kid use to things would be so much fun and cool, would turn out to be the saddest movement of my life. The enemies in real are the loved ones. Yes, I hate him. I hate him from the bottom of my heart, I hate him cause we used to exchange our homework, I hate him because we used to have gossips till late night, I hate him because without him I would not have passed my exams of Chemistry and Physics, I hate him because together we use to have real fun , I hate him because parting from him realized me that this hatred is the strongest love which  right now I am not ready to loose even for a minute.The freezing wind blew continuously that night taking away all the precious time we had together, out of which most were of fighting, living the feelings locked in the room of my heart, the keys of which will be taken by Bhai. I slept that night with darkness engaging me and throwing me some where horrific where I wandered alone on the road as if nobody and the stones hearting my heart and my brother was not there to take me out.
 Today he has to go, the time has come. As I wore my red jacket something peeked from my pocket. It was a 5-star chocolate. We were sharing a good time I slipped Bhai’s bar in my pocket………” Pritha we’ve got to lock the doors, come quickly”. I heard and ran outside. I was carrying his luggage to see him off to Chennai. The moment has finally come which I pray should never come. He boarded in train and the time slipped somehow I didn’t realize. But suddenly his started to get away from us and I had nothing to do but just to watch him fade away. My heart throbbed, it started to cry badly, but the tears didn’t came out cause they were gone with the train.
 I had to go to my Chemistry tuition at 10.00 AM so I rode off to my bicycle. It was a regular class and be studied alkane and alkynes. After it got over, as I stepped down the stairs a fear caught me“how will I be able to live without him”. It was 2^nd Jan and a new year has already started and I need him to take me to the next year. I started my bicycle. I was riding on the road which had that stone and I was a nobody as my brother was not there. I was all alone in that crowd.
 Suddenly something touched &passed by me. I got surprised. It was kissing my cheeks and forehead. It was the sweet breeze that was going with me. I was amazed  “It was beautiful , so lovely was its sensation and so sweet was its smell”. The sun was shining and as I opened my eyes, it lovingly showed me the road but surprisingly it wasn’t looking frightening anymore. It was golden and soft and beautiful flowers were there. The trees stood as if guards and the new leaves fluttered to welcome me and that’s when the breeze whispered ’you are not alone’.
 A new year really has started for the cycle of nature is about to complete as the spring cuts through the winter melting the frost of my mind and breaking the ice of my heart.